Today is the day, today I hope is the last day. Not for my time here but for what I can leave in the past. I would like to just move forward not over anything not through but towards. I have to pick up and rebuild again. It seems as soon as I set a foundation and start to build that something comes and ruins the everything and as of yesterday it happened again… I just want to scream or drink to forget everything but I know it’s only temporary to feel the blank slate. I do believe in a higher power. But what I’m struggling with is why I’m always tested I have had a fair life compared to most but my struggles are no less hard to handle. I have made so much progress since I thought my life was done and I lost everything and almost ended it all. I’m glad I didn’t I’ve got to experience and see a lot more than I thought and sure not everything was easy or well timed, and it’s been tough. I guess I don’t know what I’m rambling on about now it doesn’t matter anyways no one will read this but I hope for my sake and the worlds that there will come a day where life is better for everyone. So here’s to what lies ahead.